On Friday at Friday Mom's, we were asked about our friendships.
How are your friendships?
And all those hard questions. But the question that hit me the hardest was, "Do you want God to be your best friend."
Hands went up immediately as my face fell within them. Sobbing uncontrollably. YES. YES. I want God to be my best friend, again. I've been dying to see him again. Hear him again. See his face again.
Where did he go?
My group leader suggested that I ask God to show himself. It wasn't so much a deal breaker for God. You know that "You need to show me yourself in 48 hours or else I'm not believing in you anymore," but rather,
"I'm going to be quiet and change my perspective in situations so that I can ACTUALLY SEE YOU."
This weekend was filled with pure joy. I spent it with my best friends, every single one of them.
Looking back, I think God was truly showing himself through those friendships. I think he has been trying to tell me that he's right there in the middle of each and every single one of those precious relationships.
These friends are the ones that you call family. The ones that you can just say "I'm failing at this whole mom thing," and they laugh and share their failing moments right alongside you. These are the friends that open their homes to you, just to chat and catch up. These are the friends that don't even realize your couch is torn apart and missing pieces because your one year old decided to draw all over it. These are the friends that you can laugh alongside of about their daughter's hair is dirty- and you laugh because you know you too have those days of not washing your child's hair and try to style it in hopes of no one noticing. These are the friends that just open up their dark moments in hopes that you can be there to lift them up- and they do the same for you.
I see God in each of these friends. Some of my friends are amazing at serving others. They always check on other people, and they do what they can to help even when they themselves could use it. That's God.
I see God in the friends that no matter what, serve their husbands and children, even when they too desire to be served in return. Yet they keep on going, and they put the needs of their family before themselves.
I see God in the friends that just want to be there for you.
I see God in my friends that aren't afraid to pray for you and TELL YOU. And they send you prayers because they know that regular words wouldn't suffice.
Or my friends that pray out loud while hugging you. Yes. God is sooooo within those friends.
I'm not saying my friendships aren't messy because they can be and are. My friendships aren't perfect, but they're truth, they're forgiving, they're happy, they're sad, they're full of God which makes them so worthwhile.
Thank you, God for revealing yourself within my friendships.