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March 27, 2015

I've been finding myself running away to find a place to breathe. I've been having a hard time taking in deep breaths and allowing myself to exhale. Grief is suffocating. So I run.

 

But I think it's time I stop running. I need to. My family needs me to. My friends need me to. God.....

God needs me to. God needs me so bad right now, that he had no choice but to let me get to the lowest point of being on my knees begging. I need to stop running, not only for me but for him.

 

For him to show up and work. I need to let go of the control and let him do just what he's wanted to do all along. Show up. But in order for him to show up, I need to show up. I need to walk that line and he will meet me there. He's been trying but each time I get a glimpse, I run because it hurts too much. Way too much.

 

Grief to me is a roller coaster. A long winding, want to make you throw up, 90-degree hills that take you all the way up and give you a glimpse of the ground, and before you know it, you're back at the bottom again.

Now for those of you that haven't experienced grief, you could apply this to any hard situation in your life, or even to life in general. {Life} is a roller coaster. The kind that make you throw up.

 

Highs and lows.

 

We are all going through something. I look around the room and I can see deeper than the surface. I can see your heart. I can see your heart in a thousand pieces. I can see your joy. I can see your frustrations. I can see [you]. Continue going. Carry on. Go towards the stuff you've been hiding from so that you can go through it to the other side. There's a starting point, a middle of deep-murky water, where it hurts to the core, and then there's the other side, where you can finally catch your breath again. Everything is brighter there. And remember, you don't have to walk that line alone. God is there waiting, hands out, meeting you right where you are, and he's just asking you to [show up].

 

This journey isn't one of those single rider roller coasters. There's two seats in my cart, and He knows I'm afraid of heights. So he's sitting next to me, arms wrapped around me, and holding me along each of the chain-linking clicks on the way up the hill and tighter down the stomach turning slope.

He's riding with me.

 

He's whispering in my ear, "It's okay, you can trust me."

 

He's riding, holding, and whispering. He's there. He showed up.

 

 

 

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