"There's hope in front of me
There's a light, I still see it
There's a hand still holding me
Even when I don't believe it
I might be down but I'm not dead
There's better days still up ahead
Even after all I've seen
There's hope in front of me
There's a hope still burning
I can feel it rising through the night
And my world's still turning
I can feel your love here by my side
You're my hope
You're the light, I still see it
Your hands are holding me
Even when I don't believe it
I've got to believe
I still have hope
You are my hope."
In honor of Infant Loss Awareness Month, I teamed up with a few of my closest mom friends that too have walked this same hard journey of infant loss. These mothers are brave & still standing strong. These mothers still have hope.
It is our mission here at The Color Blue and Hope to create a safe place and community that reminds every single mother grieving the loss of her baby that she matters. She mattered before her loss and within her grief. Her role as a mother matters. Her role within life after loss matters, and it is our hope to remind her that she still has hope - it never left her.
We are launching our 'SHE MATTERS' campaign with this mission in mind. We are sharing our stories in hopes that she'll feel brave enough to share hers. There's a mama out there about to face these same trials and we want to encourage her through her grief by sharing the hope in our lives after loss.
'SHE MATTERS' campaign will raise funds for mothers grieving the loss of her baby gone too soon, while raising awareness for infant loss & the hope found within. T-shirts will spark the conversation at the grocery store, mom's groups, between fathers and can serve a mighty purpose as a gift and reminder that she matters, especially in this.
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TELL US YOUR STORY:
My name is Taylor Molitierno and I am honored to share the story of my daughter, Francesca Joy. We call her Frankie. She was born sleeping on September 22, 2016 after I carried her for 29 weeks. It was a Tuesday that we found out her heart had stopped and our lives are forever divided between the days, hours, and moments before we heard that news and after.
Our pregnancy was textbook perfect. There was no warning. There were no signs that something was going wrong. It just went horribly wrong. After a pathology report of the placenta, we learned that Frankie was sick due to a bacterial infection from the placenta. We don’t know how it happened, why, or when. We just know it was quick. We spent as much time with her as we were allowed at the hospital, held her, loved on her, and baptized her until it was time to go home and figure out how to navigate life after loss.
LIFE AFTER LOSS:
Describing life after loss in words is almost impossible. There was and will always be sadness, anger, pain.
But, there will also always be JOY and grace.
We have been amazed with the community that has supported us through this year of growth and grief, but we will never be the same. We’ve also been amazed with the lack of support from people we thought would always be there. People don’t know what to do when someone they know loses a child. Being an advocate for Mom’s and Dad’s trying to navigate loss has been on my heart since the day we got home from the hospital. You can never know true joy until you have experienced true pain and that we have.
I STILL HAVE HOPE:
Hope, at this point, is all we have. We have hope in the future. We have hope in the now. We have IMMENSE hope that we will see Frankie again one day and we also believe that if there are any siblings of hers out there, she already knows them. We have hope in the grace we have chosen to see every single day since
September 22, 2016.
TO THE GRIEVING MOM:
If you ever find yourself in my shoes, I want you to know two things:
You matter and you are strong. You will overcome this obstacle and eventually….. You will smile and you will laugh again.
It’s up to you to stand back up. Other people can put band-aids on your wounds, but only YOU can heal them. You have to choose to stand up when everyone else is allowing you to stay down.
Out of times of trial, I set my heart on triumph. In the midst of this mess of infant loss, I co-founded a company called Every. Sweat. Matters. The co-founder (and my best friend) is a cancer survivor. We believe that everyone can do hard things. We want people to know that when they don’t know what else to do, they can sweat. Sweat can become an intention, a prayer, a way to relieve anxiety and stress. Sweat because you can. Sweat for those who can’t. Every Sweat Matters.
I also am a health and fitness Coach, certified group fitness instructor, and Youth Ministry Coordinator.
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