"There's hope in front of me
There's a light, I still see it
There's a hand still holding me
Even when I don't believe it
I might be down but I'm not dead
There's better days still up ahead
Even after all I've seen
There's hope in front of me
There's a hope still burning
I can feel it rising through the night
And my world's still turning
I can feel your love here by my side
You're my hope
You're the light, I still see it
Your hands are holding me
Even when I don't believe it
I've got to believe
I still have hope
You are my hope."
In honor of Infant Loss Awareness Month, I teamed up with a few of my closest mom friends that too have walked this same hard journey of infant loss. These mothers are brave & still standing strong. These mothers still have hope.
It is our mission here at The Color Blue and Hope to create a safe place and community that reminds every single mother grieving the loss of her baby that she matters. She mattered before her loss and within her grief. Her role as a mother matters. Her role within life after loss matters, and it is our hope to remind her that she still has hope - it never left her.
We are launching our 'SHE MATTERS' campaign with this mission in mind. We are sharing our stories in hopes that she'll feel brave enough to share hers. There's a mama out there about to face these same trials and we want to encourage her through her grief by sharing the hope in our lives after loss.
'SHE MATTERS' campaign will raise funds for mothers grieving the loss of her baby gone too soon, while raising awareness for infant loss & the hope found within. T-shirts will spark the conversation at the grocery store, mom's groups, between fathers and can serve a mighty purpose as a gift and reminder that she matters, especially in this.
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TELL US YOUR STORY:
From the time I can remember I have prayed to have a large family that would include boy/girl twins. Miraculously, God answered that prayer when my son Christopher Jordan and daughter Calais Jael were born on December 15, 2014. They joined our family as the youngest of three other children.
Unfortunately, Christopher passed away unexpectedly on April 10, 2015. Although his life was short, his legacy lives on through the many lives that he has touched. I now belong to a sisterhood of women who have also experienced the loss of a child. This is not how I planned my life, however, this experience has opened my eyes and heart even more to the invisible pain that so many women in particular carry. I have learned that everyone has a story.
LIFE AFTER LOSS:
Life after loss has been adjustment after adjustment.
Losing your child changes who you are forever.
I’ve often found myself at a loss not knowing how to proceed. At first, everything is an insurmountable challenge. But as time goes on and the pain isn’t as suffocating, I question myself whether or not it’s okay to smile and be happy again. I am still learning to accept that grief and joy often co-exist.
I STILL HAVE HOPE:
Hope is what keeps me going. Hope gives me courage and tells me that I can face another day and if that is too much, that I can face the moment. Hope provides a sense for me that although things are not all well, it will be one day.
Hope allows me to lean into the grief I experience because I know that there is more.
TO THE GRIEVING MOM:
You are still and will always be “mommy” to your little one. Although your child may not be here physically, you will still parent your baby and the memories and legacy of your child – just not in the way you would have wanted. You are the best mom your baby could ever have. It’s okay NOT to be okay.
Chelsea Johnson is a wife and mother of 6 children (2 in Heaven – one miscarriage, and her son Christopher who passed away at 3.5 months old). In what little time she has, she manages to be a homeschool mom, writer, speaker, life coach, and online entrepreneur. She has a heart to love God and love people.
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