Photo By: Lacey Irving
"We're on a trip, driving through the unknown, roads winding and there's nothing but adventure ahead of us. I look over in your direction and try to imagine where this road will lead us. I try to picture you, us, 5 years from now, 10 years from now, 60 years from now, and I cannot help but smile thinking that these winding roads are the exact ones that will make us, us."
It's hard not to think of our 10 years of marriage as a road trip. A road trip that began at the bottom of a mountain that houses winding roads that leads it's passengers all the way to the top. The kind of mountain that isn't steep but still large enough to make you forget how far you've come unless you look back and see how far that starting point really is. Each exit on the mountain contains a memory I have of you - of us - some being the most monumental moments in our relationship and some being the small, everyday moments my heart stores because no matter how small they are, they're moments that stacked up to create this beautiful life we've built together.
Within 10 years we've learned what it means to be patient, to be kind, to not envy or boast but rather build up and trust. We've learned what it's like to crumble to our knees in agony and how only love - our love - could get us both back to our feet and heal. These winding roads have taken us through seasons full of grief, laughter, upset and restoration. Some of our rest areas were found within each other's arms and others were found in the hope of Jesus but no matter how much time our hearts needed rest, some how we always picked up right where we left off on our journey and continued to press on because we knew the road trip would only be worth it as long as we were doing it together.
I look back to the day we said, "I do." Just two children, shaking in a room, riding a high of nerves and faith, trusting that it would all work out. 10 years later, 5 children, a dog, home and careers, I'd say it all worked out. But this isn't the end of our journey. There's so much more left ahead of us, and I sit here, 30 years old glancing in your direction trying to imagine where this road will lead us next. I'm trying to picture you, us, 5 years from now, 10 years from now, 60 years from now and can only pray that at the top of this mountain, our mountain, is a resting place where our love can lead us anywhere we choose. A place where we can look back down and see how far we've come and how these winding roads made us, us.